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Contrary to what some people think about me, I do not think alcohol is cool. I do not drink it because i think it’s funny or because it can make me silly. I drink alcohol because that’s how I cope with a shit sometimes. When I’m having an anxiety attack it calms me down and makes me feel better. As weird as it sounds it actually helps me think rationally and helps me sort things out mentally, without getting stressed out and worked up, when there is a confusing situation going on In my life. Is it a good coping strategy? NO. But at this moment it’s all I have.

She loves her momma’s lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she’ll find someone to need her
She swears that there’s no difference between the lies and compliments
It’s all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she’s not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She’s giving boys what they want
Tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she’s lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she’ll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She’s not a drama queen
She doesn’t wanna feel this way
Only 17 and tired, yeah

She would change everything for happy ever after

Jon McLaughlin, Beautiful Disaster (via cluelessly-undead)
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